Another day 9

Sunday 2/14/2021

Feared and hatred, fear and hatred: often, it seemed that those were the only two qualities he possessed. Fear of everyone else; hatred of himself. –Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life
What is going to happen to me? he asked the sea. What is happening to me? -Hanya Yanagihara
I can walk it like I talk it play it how I say it teach it like I preach it now put that in your head -juvenile
Men want me to just do shit their way and it’s like… no…

Monday 2/15/2021

People are annoying as hell on a Monday morning.
This dude who was a friend of a friend back like 15 years ago hit me up on IG out of nowhere being dumb. Blocked within 10 minutes of reaching out. Smh.
Talked on the phone for three hours, then graded for three hours.

Tuesday 2/16/2021

“I know you a strong female in the hood but…” lol
Another day
But how was one to be an adult? Was couplehood truly the only appropriate option? (But then, a sole option was no option at all.) -Hanya Yanagihara
I think tulips are more fragrant than roses.
You hitting me up out the blue… yes I think you’re looking 4 pussy & no I don’t have nun…
I’m not scared to be sad on any holiday lol that’s mad regular.
I wish every guy who ever manipulated me into thinking they cared about me a very die.
Life is crazy but it’s also cool.
Dudes will act like they are IT… but then they don’t be it… why is that?

Wednesday 2/17/2021

Today is as good a day as any another to say fuck joe biden and kamala harris. Alright thank you for your time.

Thursday 2/18/2021

Accidentally gave my students off today.
Bought a painting this morning.
Feeling some type of way.
Got to a part in the book I’m reading where the one guy is abused a partner and then he goes home later than night and the person is in his apartment when he arrives and abuses him again… GOD so real and sad and hurtful to read.
“I’m curious about something… you’re pretty, smart, got your own place, car, good career, sweet attitude, so why are you single?”
Gonna read another Spanish book when I’m done with A Little Life. I’ll probably keep alternating between English and Spanish after that too.
Yo tengo unos pocos libros de español… necesito más… pero tengo suficiente por este momento…
These dudes are down bad!!!!! Cannot relate.

Friday 2/19/2021

Saturday 2/20/2021

The only 2 songs that matter right now are “Ring da Bell” by Monica and “Up to You” by Lil Wayne.
I’ma play it how it goes! -juvenile
Stay up & keep it real -Turk

-Rachel Wagner 2021