Another day 30

Sunday 8/1/2021

  • Me: damn why am I so drowsy and cloudy today :/
    Period app: Your period is 0 days away
  • Simone de Beauvoir gets it…
  • She has a line like “he doesn’t give a fuck. I’m in bed with memories of ours and just dying to talk and I call and you don’t answer the phone.”…..
  • Forced to hotbox cuz it stared raining :/
  • “He doesn’t give a fuck. Here I am torn to pieces by heartbreaking memories I call him and he doesn’t answer.” That’s the actual line.
  • I could read a book anywhere… public transportation taught me that…
  • Last night I’m outside holding my book at different angles trying to catch the streetlights on the page lol.
  • Pero sus ojos están serios. Y un poco tristes. -Alice Walker

Monday 8/2/2021

  • Laughing thinking about this girl in college who thanked her boyfriend for his support on a powerpoint slide during a presentation in a psychology senior seminar. Everyone was sitting there was like: ………..

Tuesday 8/3/2021

Newark NJ 8/5/2021
  • Today was weird.

Wednesday 8/4/2021

  • Bored by this book. Sigh.
  • A new book came in the mail… nice…
  • Everything feels so up in the air. Time just passes. Days go by. Seasons come around. And here I am.

Thursday 8/5/2021

  • No online school option for public schools… no smaller classes or redesigned buildings…. no shorter days or weeks… just the same old 15-30 people in a room together talking and working in close quarters for 8 hours at a time… idk man!!
  • Most states have online public school…. NJ wyd??
  • Pretty men wasup?? *nicki voice*
  • When I say I might homeschool people bring up how much it might cost… bitch I’m the teacher lol
  • I’ve been in education for over ten years… like… what are we talking about….
  • Ran on a track for the first time in years today… was running some 200’s… it was cool… this big dude was walking past like “I envy you” lol…
  • One thing I like about running is you don’t need any stuff. No bike no ball. Just yourself.
  • The thought stung. I still couldn’t accept that Trevor was a loser and a moron. I didn’t want to believe that I could have degraded myself for someone who didn’t deserve it. I was still stuck on that little bit of vanity. –Ottessa Moshfegh p 76

Friday 8/6/2021

  • Trevor Trevor Trevor. I might have felt better if he were dead, I thought, since behind every memory of him was the possibility of reconciling, and thus more heartbreak and indignity. -Ottessa Moshfegh p 99
  • Beach time.

Saturday 8/7/2021

  • Emotionally unavailable men love me….
  • Reading a good book at all times is a valid defense mechanism.

-Rachel Wagner


My blogs:
–  Girtalk
–  Read or Die

My books: 
– Jacob’s Hip: Poems
– FEM: New Millennium Beauty & Fashion
– Abandonment Issues: Alive in New Jersey
– Back Like I Never Left: Dating as a Single Mother

My bookstore: Ten Dollar Books

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